what i’ve been up to ♡
i haven’t added anything to my blog on here in a while as i’ve been quiet busy focusing on hosting events, gatherings & workshops (which is pretty new for me but everything sort of just fell into place). the last month flew by so quickly and i didn’t sit down once to write and gather my thoughts and now as i write, i notice how much i have missed it. writing is something that comes easily to me when i do it, but boy, to get myself to sit down and do it, that’s another story.
another thing that has brought me immense joy throughout the last month has been getting back into horse riding. this has unlocked a new side of joy within me, that has been hidden away for a while now. i’ve been riding on and off since i was 10 and being around horses & spending time at a stable makes my life instantly better, more peaceful & more present. being there makes me forget i have a phone and i instantly feel pulled back into my body & the world and animals around me. i’m listening very closely to this feeling i reconnected to last month, as i believe in joy to be our most powerful guide in life.
in january, i’ll be back in new zealand and i’m beyond excited. i’m not only excited about escaping the cruel winter months here in austria, but also to finally make my way back to the place i’ve felt most at home in my 20 years on this planet. i’m curious how it will feel to be back. this will also be my first big trip after spending the last 2 years mostly close to home. a part of me is a little nervous and that’s fine. it will all be fine though, i know that deep down.
also, everytime i do these updates, i notice how i pretty much don’t take any photos in my daily life anymore. i’ve gotten a lot more intentional with what i photograph & of course also with my screentime and phone-usage. so much has happened in the past few months, yet i didn’t capture most of it. of course to some extent it’s sad, but mostly it feels relieving. i spent the last 4-5 years of my life constantly taking photos of everything in my life, with the intention and purpose of posting it later, updating my stories or simply feeling the need to capture anything just out of habit. i find that writing about my experiences helps, as reading back on what happened often instantly reconnects me to the visual image of my experiences in my head anyways. this way my life feels almost intimate and sacred. my experiences are for me and they don’t happen just for the world to see what i do. in the future i want to use my old canon g7x to capture moments again, maybe with the intention of creating a sacred photobook or photo album at the end of the year or every six months.
